‘I blacked out, broke my back and wet myself’: Susannah Constantine recalls ‘humiliating’ moment that forced her to admit she was an alcoholic

  • The presenter, 60, was drinking a bottle and a half of wine every night at the height of her alcoholism but would hide the evidence from her loved ones
  • She hit rock bottom in 2013 when she blacked out, fell over, broke two transverse processes in her back and wet herself with her family present 
  • If you have been affected by this article please contact the AA helpline free on 0800 917 7650 to be put in touch with someone locally

Susannah Constantine has recalled the ‘humiliating’ experience that forced her to seek help from her family regarding her drinking. 

During an appearance on Thursday’s Lorraine, the 60-year-old fashion guru detailed hitting rock bottom when she blacked out and wet herself on a family holiday in 2013. 

She would drink a bottle and a half of wine every night and admitted alcohol had a ‘control’ over her while she attempted to hide her drinking from husband Sten Bertelsen and their children Cece, 18, Esme, 21, and Joe, 23. 

Rock bottom: During an appearance on Thursday’s Lorraine, Susannah Constantine has recalled the ‘humiliating’ experience that forced her to seek help with her drinking 

She explained: ‘Anyone who is suffering from alcoholism will identify with this, it had been building up to the point where I didn’t have control over alcohol, it had control over me.’

Recalling the moment she decided to get help, she continued: ‘We were in Cornwall and I wasn’t drinking much more than anyone else but I think when you drink consistently and daily, your body becomes like a saturated sponge and it doesn’t take much to tip you over the edge.

‘So I blacked out, I fell over, I broke two transverse processes in my back and I wet myself, and you can’t get anything more humiliating than that. And my children witnessed this and my husband and brother-in-law took me up to bed.’

Heartbreaking: The 60-year-old fashion guru detailed hitting rock bottom when she blacked out and wet herself on a family holiday in 2013 (pictured in October that year) 

She continued: ‘I don’t know how I had the courage, but the next day I just got everyone round the table and I said, “look I need help. I’ve been lying to you, I keep saying I’m not drinking, I’m drinking far more than any of you know and I need to do something about it”.

‘And then I asked them all, “how has this made you feel?” And they all told me and I knew that was the point I had to stop and had to start regaining the trust of my family because I’d been lying.’

Susannah previously admitted that she found her attempts to keep her alcoholism hidden ‘all-consuming and exhausting.’ 

Candid: The TV presenter, whose mother was also an alcoholic, first revealed she has a drinking problem in 2020, and told how she has been in recovery for seven years

The TV presenter, whose mother was also an alcoholic, first revealed she has a drinking problem in 2020, and told how she has been in recovery for seven years. 

Writing for The Daily Mail she confessed: ‘On occasion my guard would slip and it couldn’t be hidden. To my great shame, I will never forget the time it was suggested that my husband should take me home from a friend’s 40th birthday because I could barely stand.

‘After years of waking up filled with shame and guilt and asking God for the four horsemen to take me away and not bring me back, I knew it was time. Drinking had ceased to be fun. I had ceased to be fun. I was no longer in control, it was controlling me.’ 

She added: ‘When I first attended an AA meeting, the relief swept over me when I realised other people had the same stories and feelings; I was not alone. 

‘I would say the same to anyone coming to terms with similar issues now: you are not alone. It is not an exaggeration to say that AA saved my life.’ 

Touching on how her drinking had impacted her loved ones, she continued: ‘My husband’s story is not mine to tell, but suffice to say, I am forever grateful he understood my alcoholism was a battle I had to fight alone. 

‘I cannot do justice here to his strength, love and support, but without it, I might still be drinking today.

And while I don’t feel I have uncovered everything about my own alcoholism, I do feel there is a conclusion to my story. 

‘I realise I am, on some level, still dealing with the guilt and shame attached to it, and that it is a long road, but I feel like I’m on the right one.

‘I now understand I am not a bad person trying to become good, I’m an ill person trying to get better.’

If you have been affected by this article please contact the AA helpline free on 0800 917 7650 to be put in touch with someone locally 

Deception: She attempted to hide her drinking from husband Sten Bertelsen and their children Cece, 18, Esme, 21, and Joe, 23 (pictured in 2020)

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