DERRICK Jaxn admitted he was "getting high and drunk" in addition to cheating on his wife, Da'Naia.
He, however, claimed he was "healed" from his demons "by God."
Amid the scandal surrounding the relationship guru, he has revealed that his life was in shambles not only because his wife let him but because he had been indulging with dangerous substances.
In a YouTube Live which aired right after his confession video, Derrick revealed what else was happening as he cheated on his wife in 2019 and 2020.
He said: "This is my opportunity to reflect God's. 'Leave God out of it.' No, I'm not leaving God out of it. And to make it clear, it wasn't about infidelity. Infidelity didn't run my life.
"I'm sitting here, getting high and getting drunk. I'm still suffering from anxiety and depression – I'm good at mindfulness techniques, meditation, the whole nine.
"But there was so much internal turmoil. I never abused her, never be cussing at her, nothing like that but Derrick was so internally deficient and all of that was restored. Now I'm on God."
Da'Naia added that she wouldn't have come back had Derrick not made a conscious effort to change and pursue a relationship with God, which is very important to her.
"There is growth happening rhere and I'm satisfied. I am full and before I was empty and I want to say that you are at this point, meeting my needs," she told him.
"I didn't want to be with anyone who doesn't have a relationship with God. I was not gonna come back unless you had a relationship with God and you were continuing yor pursuit without me."
In the same video, De'Naia and Derrick revealed that they separated at the beginning of the year when she found out about the affairs – something they had also dealt with before getting married in 2016.
It tooks months for her to come back to him and they started living together again in October, something they call their "new marriage."
De'Naia also revealed she filed for divorce some time in 2020 but later took it back.
This new development in their marriage comes after Derrick was forced to reveal to his fans that he and his wife had separated in 2020 after he was unfaithful to her with several women.
"Derrick Jackson was involved with other women outside of the marriage," Derrick began.
"And by involved, I want to be clear, I'm not talking about kicking it, some lunch. I'm talking about things as serious as sex, sexual flirtation, and that kinda thing.
"And some things that may be considered ok by some in terms of chatting and checking in with people who I had a previous encounter with, but without my wife's knowledge and with us having a sexual history, all of it falls under the umbrella of inappropriate, cheating, affair, stepping out."
After his confession, Da'Naia also addressed their fans and said: "I agree with what he just said, there is no justification for bringing other women into our marriage on any level and it was unacceptable.
"It's not something that I tolerate or we tolerate moving forward and when I've been flooded with messages that I need to leave and why haven't I left, the answer is that when I found about it, I left.
"I didn't hesitate or waste time to do so. And I stayed gone, no matter how many times he came, I stayed gone and stayed firm in my decision and I did not come back until I saw a shift and change in his mentality and how he carried himself and how he presented himself in conversations that we were able to have that we were never able to have in 12 years of knowing each other."
She continued: "When we were able to have these dialogues and said 'Ok Lord, this is something that you've had your hand on,' and this is me being completely removed from his life and with him continuing to pursue God and continuing to eliminate these things that led up to the catastrophe that you guys are seeing for the first time."
She concluded her message as she said:" So today, where I'm at, it's at peace and by his side and I have no hesitation or hurt or shame about that, and it's only because of the grace of God and the mercy of God.
"And we have already turned a new chapter in this story and we are continuing to move forward and we are just now sharing this with you, and I forgave him and most importantly, God has forgiven him and the others as well. And we are in that free to move forward."
Derrick and Da'Naia have been together for over 12 years and they share two kids.
Derrick's video comes after one of his alleged mistresses, Candiace De Meneiro, exposed him during a YouTube interview.
She claimed that Derrick planned a Miami getaway with her in July of 2020 and tried to woo her with fancy gifts.
Derrick also allegedly brought her to his family’s home in Atlanta.
She further claimed that Derrick had convinced her that he was separating from his wife after seeing boxes in his home while visiting.
The influencer said that she grew suspicious of Derrick when he would only communicate with her through Snapchat, but alleged she ended up getting blocked from his socials.
Following his confession, Derrick uploaded yet another video where he reacted to his apology as if he was watching from a third-person perspective.
He told fans: "Upon first impression, nothing really stuck out about him but so about the wife.
"Just by her body language, I have to wonder 'Did he force her to do this video? Like she looks super uncomfortable like she doesn't want to be there but then I watched the Live chat they did right afterward and I kinda caught that this part of her personality. She clearly has a mind of her own."
Derrick proceeded to "applaud" himself for taking accountability of his mistakes and confessing to not only his wife but his fans who usually seek his advice about relationships.
He said: "I hope he understands that all the accountability in the world is not going to rebuild broken trust – not on the personal level, even with the public that he's addressing, even his most loyal supporters probably going to raise eyebrows from this point forward when he wants to condemn another man for something like this and rightfully so."
Derrick proceeded to claim that he was happy with himself for bringing up God towards the end of his apology video, but wouldn't have believed him had he seen this video a few years prior.
In his apology video, both Derrick and his wife claimed God had forgiven him and alleged that Derrick slipping in his relationship with God caused him to be unfaithful.
Towards the end of the new video, he told fans that he's not living a double life and that he's been putting in the work to reconstruct the broken trust with his wife.
"Nonetheless, I know some people are going to see this type of video, even though he's come forward and been completely honest, some people are just going to close the book on this dude.
"They'll say 'You know what? I'm done with you. I'm canceling you, cancel culture, come here.' I'm more so on the side of his wife and just basically letting this new chapter of how I see him because I do believe his content over the years has helped a tremendous amount of people.
"He tells the truth, he speaks facts and quite honest, I've needed several new chapters in my life. Lord knows. And I'm not ashamed to say it. But I'm no guru, those are just my thoughts."
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